I’m so totally excited for Neko I can’t stop looking at the photos. Not to mention she’s all skinny and shit and totally hot while I sit here, well, fat.

Anywho.

Me. I’m f’ing cranky as all hell. Best Friend and I planned a trip to Tahoe months ago thanks to a free room her parent’s got. All was well with this plan until my cousin from Michigan informed me she’d be visiting this weekend. The cousin I haven’t seen since we essentially sat around *watching* my grandma die whilst my marriage was crumbling like a piece of bread that sat in the sun for 5 years lightly brushed by fingers.

Bad analogy. Suffice to say “tough time.”

Moving along. So cousin can ONLY visit this weekend. Tahoe is planned with best friend. I mention this to best friend thinking she’ll say “cool, whatever, spend time with your cousin – we can go another time.”

No BF is NOT handling it that way; in fact is ignoring and changing the subject whenever I lament how upset this coincidence is making me.

I also haven’t outright asked to get out of the plans, because, well, I know what happens when I cancel dinner plans and let’s just say it takes MONTHS of repair. She still brings up the time I got the stomach flu and couldn’t make it to her house to help her pick out an outfit for a date. Seriously, WTF. My Reasonable Friend (who moved to NY) can’t believe C still does this.

I make her sound horrible. She isn’t. She has lots of redeeming qualities. But if you Make Plans no matter what hellfire should befall you Do Not Break Plans. It’s her quirk.

Still. Uh? SELFISH MUCH?

Things like this make me question if she’s really a good friend. And I will at some point address this; but she also does not take at all well to being wrong.

I guess I have a very long, snowy car ride however with which to say, “so did I mention when grandma was dieing how Christina and I spent so much time going through her wedding albums, you know I hate that shit, but she had a gorgeous wedding. She’s so great, I really wish I just knew her better. For all these years we say we’re going to do stuff and it just never happens. I hope she’s having fun at that BBQ with my parents.”

ETC.

Indeed. Trouble ahead, trouble behind….I’ll just keep signing that old song.