This isn’t a time when I should be feeling stressed, but I’m just having a funky Monday.
It was a good weekend of debauchery and hanging with the girls. Fun all around. Mr. Florida sent me oodles of texts on Saturday night expressing missing me, wanting to know how I felt, and his possible interest in not going to Florida. Maybe coming back here. Maybe…
I know distance makes the heart grow fonder, etc…but I DO think I could really fall for him. And I want him to come back. I want to have a relationship with him. Things I have a hard time expressing and also I wonder if I’m nuts, because I only met him back in May. How can I know all this? How can I feel like I love him?
He wants me to come up and visit him in Seattle. But I had plans with the girls to go to Bakersfield. I know, Bakersfield vs. Seattle? Tough choice, huh? I’d rather go to Seattle even if I can’t so much afford it. Many reasons I have no interest in Bakersfield but feel I’m getting guilted/peer pressured into it - hell, I’d rather stay home alone.
I need to talk to him about it. Sent him a text this a.m. Haven’t heard back. I’ll call him this evening. But flights are running out. I know I should be all “que sera” about it and let things fall into place…but I have a hard time with that. I could always go the following weekend.
Just feel like there is so much going on…
1. The girls being very demanding of my time. I shouldn’t be complaining, it’s wonderful to have amazing girlfriends but they do not understand my need for time by myself and called like 10 times yesterday trying to get me to come out. Even enlisted a bar random to call me and say, “you’re friend gave me your number yesterday at Zebra, I thought there was something special about you.” To trick me into coming out. I caught on…
2. Then there is the job search which is going very well but scary to contemplate *actually* leaving,
3. And then the boy stuff.
UPDATE: I’m booked on a flight to Seattle. Full-fare (for el cheapo over here that should explain just how badly I want to see this guy.) Isn’t part of life doing crazy things? Well. Cheers to crazy! My friend’s are pissed but such is life. Deal.
