Ahhhhh!!!!!!! I really don’t know if I can take another day. Last week I needed to talk – to everyone and for long and hard. I needed connection. Not to feel alone. This week, I’m feeling very quiet. So many things to do and I’ve always worked best in silence. Homework (when I actually did it) had to be done in silence. I can’t even sleep with any noise of any kind. So. It’s just that when I’m trying to focus and clean up things, make sure I don’t forget to change something, leave a note, read through papers and decide if they’re right I need SILENCE.

People talky talking around me when I’m trying to focus is like a jackhammer outside your bedroom window….it’s ANNOYING.

And The Temp. Will Not Shut UP!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously. I don’t know how she does it. And about everything. Not that she isn’t nice and not that I don’t appreciate her being here it’s just that I can’t THINK!!!!

And then she’ll go on and on and on (for hours people – 9 hours) about the nightmares of dating after her divorce. Which, ya’ know, I REALLY don’t need to hear right now. I need tales of people that went on to find a better, more real, more intense love. Not about getting screwed over. It’s just. Not what I need and no matter how I steer the conversation it always gets back to some guy she’s dated.

She’s an ex-model too, so if she’s having this hard of a time I’m just *so* anticipating a great experience. Ha. I realize I’m a much different person and I hopefully won’t fall for the types that do bad things, but I remember dating pre-Rob and, holy shit, there were a lot of losers.

I have to remember I’ll be fine alone…must remember that. And there was a gorgeous guy in the elevator the other day that if I didn’t know better (or was hallucinating) seemed to be checking me out a bit. He just kept glancing at me – in a sheepish sort of way. Maybe I just had some lint on my sweater or dandruff or something. But, mmmmm, at least 6’4” with a barrel chest and curly dark hair….yum.

Each night I get more packing done and I think I’m in decent shape. With any luck it won’t rain, my u-haul will come through (it being the end of the month they’re booked) and somehow this will go smoothly.